I don't know what will happen..

Hey readers , life is like Erm wow .
Things keep happening :/
Haiz friends and everything .
Im seriously tired man .
Haiz oh godddddddd !
Urgh .
May god bless everyone ba . ..
不要因为我而。。。 Haizzz

Life is fine .
Thats all.

Changes , adapting , fear .

Currently at relatives house using iPad ^^
It's so cool like bigger version of iPhone haha :D
But so big and clear .
Hmmmm many things happened ..
Hmmm close friends better then even worst then strangers ba (:
I only can say my life changed everything changed .
I've also changed somehow .
I'm scared to lose friends but idk what is wrong ..
I can't help it ..
I feel like shit too like nth seems right, sometimes even good friends I just like dao or sth ..
Idk why am I like this I'm tired already ..
No matter right or wrong I can only say I'm mad alrd I'm sry for all my craps and bullshit .
But this is true , true friends always stayed no matter what ..
They're always there ..
That's all I can say now ..
People sometimes life get hard but smile though it hurts , laugh though u feel like tearing , because you get stronger after everything !
Hmm to those of my close friends I doubt you'll see this but ..
Shirleen is really sorry if she dao you ppl or have a change in attitude somehow ,
Because after every break up she change for a period of time ..
She really hopes you guys can stay , and don't hate her or just give up on her );
Really ..
I know I'm kinda different alrd but after my emotions is settle I'll stop changing but by then those who stayed will be my close friends still..
Those who left .. Idk maybe we will diftt or sth idk..
But shrirleen is trying her best to nt to be a mad girl really ..
And Mikey thanks for willing to be my friend finally it meant a lot to me being ok with you (:
This is the first time I'm willing to be friends and let go at the same time (:
Hmm , hope we can really become great friends !!! :D
And sweetheart thanks that you didn't give up on us though I was really like a mad girl back then ..
Since sec two too , ever since you sat in front of me we are like sweetheart that know everything bout each other , and it's really nice well glad that we are fine now (:
You should know my love for u no need say hahah !
Our target is sp Lets go for it Tgt (: Love you lots babe ! :D
And huijing we will pull through this .. We will emo and cry and laugh Tgt !!!!
Okok :D
Hmm cause we both are weak and yet strong girls :D
Love you ,
And Sean I hope we will be fine :/
And Sis , from sec two till now we are like if anyone see audrea there will be shirleen ..
Now? Shirleen is scared to lose you ..
Really though we don't seem to really care but it seems because we always turn out fine .
Audrea I hope we will be okay seriously .. Cause now even outsiders think we distant somehow .. But yet seem fine idk leh ..
So .. I'll try my best I'll try .. Ily..
I guess no one will see this but really shirleen is trying her best nt to become a mad girl further more really ..
I love a guy so much , but still my friends though I hardly show concern but I care .
I seriously care .
I look at the night sky , everyone came to my mind , friends , mike , everyone .
I'm really scared because once I lost a very good friend in sec 1 ever since I change my mindset a lot really I even cried for her it was hardcore so after that I can say nor put in so much for a friend anymore , serious .
But now I can't bear to lose my friends .. I'm sorry ):

Heyo ,
Life is like fine but I feel like a mad girl ):
Hmm , I miss the ass ):
Me and sweetheart okay le I dun want go crazy again Hahas later we ma ciam couple damn LOL Hahas :/
Hmm got act bye bye (:

Sweetheart i'm really sorry :'(

I don't feel the same anymore .

Idk to say sorry or to idk what .

But if you don't mind or care anything it's the best .

Cause idk why am i like that too.

& by doing this i broke my promise to be always there for you and be your sweetheart forever ):

You were always there for me the one that saw me crying and all ..

I'm sorry ..

I hate myself this way ..

I'm sorry ..

I know how it feels to be treated this way but yet..

Idk , maybe you're so close to him ..

I'm sorry babe :'(
haix , can u kill me so i wun be so idiot .

so maddddd. grrrrr .

i miss you babe ):

i'm mad alrd la . haix . i'm sorrryyyyyyyy ):

idw ignore you deeeee ...

Maybe i shouldn't even feel sorry at all.

Idk . forget it .

i'm sorry but idk how to treat you like before anymore..

Shall not further elaborate .

Bye.

Cny is coming hope everyone out there is happy .