Sweetheart i'm sorry ..

29Jan2010 .

I feel more then sad .

I kinda don't even know how i feel .

I'm tired , sad , feeling like shit and everything .

I laugh , i smile .

But after a second or so , i feel something deep in my heart hurting so much .

And it seems like sometimes i really look tired or something .

Even some random relieve teacher walks towards me and ask me if i'm okay .

I'm tired of telling anyone how i feel.

All i can say is i'm alive and fine .

Not mutually exclusive ,

Time changes everything .

I thought you were different , i believe you and ignored everyone .

Haix , what more to say , i can only accept it .

But well , i can never hate you just very very disappointed .

This time the pain is different , not so hardcore , the pain is just so different .

Tomorrow band exchangeeeeee :/

LOVE .

HOPE .

LIFE .

TRUST .

hmmmmm .

i miss you like alot .

Alone is the best for me now , don't come into my memories and smile , let me think till I go mad , let me think till I breakdown , let me suffer till I can't , at the very least I'm still alive .
For all I know I'm just alive now .

Nvr mind , i can't leave my blog alone .

Because i'm left alone .

I love you so much more than i thought i would love anyone ..

Haix , why ..

I never thought of leaving you .. ):

You're the reason that i always smile.

Now who can make me really smile.

Who can make me really happy .

No one except you .

I'm fucking damn sad .

I'm not going to ever update till i'm ever really happy again.

Byebye .

Let's just be friends (:

WOW. okay ..

相信

Hey readers , how's everything ?

Everything seems fine .

And i need to be too .

If not i'm like a crazy girl depressed / mad for nothing but paranoid .

Huijing , i hope you will be fine soon , everything will be fine for you .

Cause you always there for me , so i'm here too (:

Hmm .. D&t coursework .

I found problem already but need do many things . Stressed man ><

Grhhhhggg , trust life trust love , trust tomorrow a little .

Cause it 'll be better :D

Yes thats right . Must happy happy shirleen !

(:

And idk why i feel like urgh shit .

I miss you like fucking alot :/

TRUST (:

Life .

Hey readers , today is simply awesome .

Though it's just like any other day , but this time i can finally see him happily :D

Hmm , then went with him after block test (:

Block test was crap la . Haha.

Nvr mind , finally no need so stress cause block test .

Well , at least for NOW :/

Hmmm , D&T problem , cracking our brains out . Hahas .

Tomorrow got band , Fri band , Sat band . Urgh .

This year is O level , so fast leh , so wow .

We're 16 finally , and yup wow .

In bartley for the 4th year .

11.1.11

The guy that i love the most is back to me .

Though many things happened , but i love him even more now .

:D

Yayness , believe in something and it'll happen .

Hey readers ,

we together again .

Shocked ? hahas .

\I'm really very happy / !

Hmm block test is like hell , i totally just never study or either study only abit ..

But O level Chinese i got A1~ . HEHE .

Hmm , last paper tmr for people no Amaths :D . Jiayous .

My heart is stronger then my mind .

My will is stronger then my thoughts of giving up .

:D

He's weird .

But i'm also weird .

Urghhh .