I turned away from the dark .

29072009
Gen 's Birthday !



I shall skip the school lessons thingly .
hmmm ,
after the english drama thingly ,
i first went with gen & huijing .
but needed to buy cake so i say i need to find emille ,
instead i went to find Sok xuan (:
then me & her went parkway walked around bought a cake liao ,
then we went her house .
we lighted the candles outside then we entered her house ,
she dun even know can .
She was like so damn sad reading the bk . haha .
then we was like Happy birthday ! Surprise ! . LOL
then she was so touched that she even cried . haha
then we talk talk then camwhore .
then time to go home .
i was glad that she've enjoyed it .
happy birthday ! I love you ♥

-----------------------------------------------------------

30072009,

Today was a okay day ba .
Skip the lessons details .
but i've got something to say .
today Mr chen was fucking angry ,
he was like warned us so many times then the class still very noisy .
then he was like saying like to talk so much okay ,
give me all your ezlink say till 5 today !
then we was like give lor .
then ltr he say you need to have sth to exchange yr ezlink .
& you know wat !?
he ask us to write a 2000 word sorry letter .
we all was like rushing but the last period he ask the teacher to return us ,
if we finished writing the letter ,
we didn't actually write 2000 words la .
but i wrote like 1000 over ?
then most of it were like rubbish to him ._.
& i also found out that kin ming is a pervert lor .
Before drama we was like walking around in sch ,
with eric , kin ming , yun yue , audrea , emille .
& many things happened nt to us .
but to hmmm better nt say :O

Move on to the Chinese Drama (:
It's fun !
alot better than going band . really lor .
We enjoyed .
even it seems a bit stupid , some activities la .
hmmm ,
the person who taught us is kinda good . haha .
we laughed alot .
as many funny things happened ,
esp the last activity .
it was kinda stupid but funny . LOL
hmm shall nt say but ,
it was like AEROPLANE BECOMES BIRD ( i won't say the full story , haha ! )
then after drama went home .
then just now jin yin suddenly tell me ,
band till like 4++?
omggg ,
tomorrow die liao lor ,
nvm die tgt .
cause me , huijing , jin yin & gen thought it ended alrd :c
i shall nt think abt it too much . LOL

It's time for me to go on .
I don't want a dark place ,
i want to go back to the light .

what's the feeling ?

erm hi .
Today i woke up kinda early , then read harry potter then went sch ...
hmmm , assembly at parade square today .
hair tio by ms syikin ._.
hmmm ,
then eng lesson was at com lab .
doing the music review thingly .
then after that was sci .
people was sleeping teacher just dun care .
then chinese genevieve . i spelled correctly right this time (:
i finally learn how to spell her name (LOL)
her ezlink gan na confiscated :x
cause i keep talking to her , but teacher nvr say me also . haha .
then after chi was history .
ermmmmm ,
it's bored .
but suprisely i was interested with the topic this time ,
i didnt fall asleep instead listened (:
ermmmmm ,
then maths even though there was also another teacher in class but it's like as usual slack .
i went find wing yin .
then we started talking abt harry potter . LOL
skip the rest .
anw i got into the chinese drama lesson thingly .
should i go for band or drama ?
i'm nt interested in band anymore i feel like dying whenever i sits in there .
so how ? idk .
but it's bad to nt go , cause it's getting lesser & lesser ppl . idk :x
nvm see first ba .
cause nowadays it's like very few ppl ?
then after school went hougang mall .
with randy , yun yue & emille .
we wanted to play arcade but even though with jacket the counter person know we've got sch uni :@
then we went off ,
walked a while then i bused home .
on the way home ,
i thought of many things .
you can say is the same thing that i'm always thinking ba .
today i was kinda emo ? sad ? moody ? idk . it's nt PMS . LOL
i told yun yue .
i want to smile ? but sth 's making me frown ,
i want to laugh but i dunno wat have hold me back .
i can suddenly turn so sad out of a sudden , idk why .
maybe think alot , think too much of things alrd .
hmmmm ,
i'm feeling so tired .
worned out .
i really want to be happy , but it's the hardest thing now .
idk wat i'm thinking ,
idk how i really feels but it just suck alot .
i wanna type alot but dunno wat to say anymore .

Feeling something's lost but i dunno wat's that.

It's alot better .

Today school is fine ba ,
erm well , lessons were kinda like slack .
hmmm ,
the morning assembly is abt the racial harmony thingly ._.
the video was kinda lame but funny & weird .
& after that was history ms wong smiled in a retarted & kinda cute way . haha .
then after that lessons were as usual so boring .
the sexual education .
the lesson that ppl ask so many questions . they are damn high when it's that lesson .LOL
erm ,
after ACT , got napfa .
hehehe .
this year i think 5 stations all passed ba .
but only nt very good lor .
I turned a bit High after seeing someone ._.
but inorder to nt let my friendssss , like ask " Shirleen ! ,omg are you okayy ? why look so angry ? "
or sth like that i decide to be happy (:
( they are always like so drama (: ) LOLL .
i think they'll kellll me if they sees this .LOL
Standing board jump was kinda better than any of the years . haha .
the incline pull up was like fucking hard lor .
cause mr chin say no support ._.
& its like the shoe keep moving i do till want die sia .
haizzz ,
napfa i don't expect much also lor . LOL
everything dropped lor .
only shuttle run & standing board jump i did better i think ? LOL
and the sky is so evil ,
but yet so cool ._0
we got napfa half then rained .
so moved in to the canteen & so on lor .
after school we tooking liz's cab to the bus stop .
& it's like only me & audrea . hahaha .
now liz like idk also ? LOL
but she's kinda okay ? erm at least nt wat i thought . :0
yea then after that me & audrea reached the bus stop nt long then 62 come liao .
then we bused home . hehe ,
then ltr i was like just starting my com ,
to do the eng thingly .
then audrea says that her com got problem again ,
wat green greeen thing .LOL
then i was like okay ?!
her com always spoil , hopeless . LOL
then she came over my house to do .
this time the damn com is much more faster then the other time she came .
cause im now using Google Chrome .
erm it's kinda fast ? idk maybe nt to you ? LOL
then now i think i shall stop here cause my hands real tired too ._.
hmmm ,
goodnights people .
i'm off to read harry potter & copy homeworks that i've borrowed . LOL

不够成熟

想我还是不够成熟

还达不到你的要求

我真的没有想的太多

只是怀念 你走以后

离开难道真的是解脱

难道真的要试过几次了以后才懂

倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有

倔强抬起头 决不让眼泪往下流

倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有

真的不难过 笑着和你挥 挥手

想我还是不够成熟

还达不到你的要求

我真的没有想的太多

只是怀念 你走以后

离开难道真的是解脱

难道真的要试过今天的以后才懂

倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有

倔强抬起头 决不让眼泪往下流

倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有

真的不难过 笑着和你挥 挥手

如果有一刻 我们有缘在见

你会不会想起说过的永远

倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有

倔强抬起头 决不让眼泪往下流

倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有

真的不难过 笑着和你挥 挥手


BY 2 .

Memory just like memory .

You walked in to my life,
But just like that,
You walked back out,
Still you will be a memory,
A memory that I have created in my mind,
Still you will be a memory,
A memory that will always be locked,
Away in my heart and my mind,
I will always have a memory of you in my heart,
And I will always carry that picture of you in my mind,
Still you will be a memory,

Nicole Elizabeth Edwards

why frown when you wish to smile so much ?

Yesterday didnt take 2.4 yet .
cause no pe . mr darren chin nvr come :(
we changed to pe liao can then changed back .lol
then we just slacked in the class ,
me , shirlyn , audrea , yun yue , sirjana & Sok xuan was playing heart attack . lol .
shall skip wat happened after that cause it's boring .
after school i nvr go band(:
i went with huijing .
We took bus 58 .
while on the bus we talked a lot . haha . found out many things (:
secrets tooo (:
forgot alight at tampiness ,
so went pasir ris eat liao then go tampiness find Cedric , Randy & Wei xuan .
while eating was also talking . it was like so nice to talk . LOL
then after that we took bus to Cedric 's house .
then ltr we went down to the bcourt .
then played basketball with huijing for a while .
then ltr when yun yue came she left :x
i didnt go with her ,
i continued to stay there .
played for till like 5.10 ?
then we went bus stop wanted to take bus de .
but Wei xuan wanted take cab go home so we went with him but we stopped at tampiness .
but half way i asked the taxi turn back cause i forgot my wallet ,
luckily Cedric ran back help me find (:
thanks alot .
then after that reached le tampiness actually wanted to find gen they all de but nvr la .
cause can't too late go home . sorry :(
then i tooi MRT then changed to bus .
then reach home .
then all the blah3 .
then at night audrea borrow sth from me then she came to my block downstair to take lor.
& i heard from her that Ncc air also very little ppl ytd .
and today maybe nt going out ba .
staying at home ,
tml gonna have tution .
so sian .
and stupid blogger .
you forever cannot fix de lor .
so irritating .
now i'm nt using firefox or neither IE .
haha . this is much more better . lol .
shall stop here /
i hope today's a better day .
ytd huijing says many things that is like make sense . haha .
so i hope i can be like her everything so positive (:
bye !

because i thought that i don't deserve to smile

The two ways of choice .

Today school 's normal ba ?
home econs got test . omg . i think i'll fail ba (:
then ltr music was like wth . sian .
teacher played the stupid video ?
then i almost slept but did try to keep awake .
then emille just slept & the teacher didn't even cared . LOL
then after recess was chinese ,
teacher's like quite friendly nowadays . haha .
then after chi was maths ,
it's like we learnt the dunno wat . i wasn't listening .
but i do understand kae :P
then after that eng , got vocab test :x
i hope i can pass .
then after sch , got band :O
band resumes today .
actually wanted to pon de .
then gen was like dun want la dun want la .
so didn't .
but she regreted for nt skipping . me too .
it was BORED .
i was like feeling like going to die in there ,
but it ended kinda early ?
idk la .
anw i hate mr blogger .
the posting thing is getting better la .
but still dun have the on top those things :@

If i could re choose the past ,
i still would've choose this .
cause it's worth to ,
cause without all this ,
i wont experience && feel so much more abt life .
i sound so old (LOL)
but yea i does feel all the changes made ,
good & bad .

& GEN YOU OWES ME A TREAT FOR MACFLURRY (:

I only wanted to smile .

Hey people relink me if you're here .
Thanks ,
Shirleen .

realities into history .

yesterday .

Today .



Gonna post very short .
Today was fine ba ?
hmmmmm ,
early in the morning rained .
then the sky suddenly so dark cause got solar thingly .
shall skip all the blah3 today .
cause it even makes me bored . LOL
After sch me & audrea went sing post .
ate @ Long johns .
then ltr walk for a while .
then bused home (:
& i got my Mr happy happy (:

i didn't meant to say those on that day , how i wished i've got magic .

Let me tell you about my day (:
lessons ,
were bored .
erm for english we do the MJ thingly so damn bored .
then history we took the test .
then maths we also took the test .
so overall today erm okay la .
same crapped around everywhere ,
but emille angry with me & TYY :(
cause we didnt wanted to wait for her ,
sorry .
er me , yun yue & Randy went to watch harry potter & the half blood prince .
went AMK .
it was like nt very interesting la .
i kinda find the bk more interesting then the movie :(
so disappointing .
it was more of romance this movie ,
less of magic :(
& like talk talk talk .
& the ending like bu san bu si . LOL .
i hope there will be another last movie ,
& i'm looking forward to it !
& this is the first time that i watch movie till going end then chiong to the toliet can .lol
i rushed to the toliet & then when i go back i went in to the wrong theatre ,
so malu la .
but ltr when i went back nothing interesting also la . haha .
then ltr we MRT home .
but i alighted to change into bus .
yun yue was damn crazy like some crazy kid .
then Randy was so lame de lor . haha .
then me emo emo ._.
i was kinda down for some moments but the two crazr ppl keep crazying ,
then me joined in somehow .
& stupid blogger can't do anything like yesterday too :@
you suck alot ,
recently give so many problems . wth .
but the clever me of course fnd a way to post pictures . hahaha .
shall stop here !
bye (:

crazy crazy .

hey people ,
returned back to school . haha .
See my sweet & cool friends !
they all was like saying why you all back ?
then me & audrea was like to spread germs to you all .(LOL)
i thought there will be history test for us today , then no lor .
we will take tml i think ? but different from them de :(
& like what the hell ,
my posting thing turns crazy .
( audrea just called me , i asked her then she say mine also ma !) LOL .
:@
it's like idk how say .
but sorry audrea can't upload photos .
cause i can't even change colour or do anything for now :x
urgh .
post next time .
let me talk about my day . hehe .
er today before chinese we was shotuing & screamingg . LOL
is like weegin they all was at the back of the class lokcking them up in the dunno wat small room la ? LOL .
then we was like play play . haha .
errr the last lesson sexual education .
they all so damn high , talk and talk . LOL
we got to knoe the teacher he's quite kind & funny la . haha .
but only his actions so ._.
it was a fun lesson .LOL
then the other lessons is fine ba .
but somehow bored .
after school go do the survey thingly ,
& ltr went back class crazy a while then mr chen came .
Wing yin didnt attend ACT so good . lol
but we was talking more than doinf work ,LOL
cca gonna resume this week . omgg .
my harry potter dunno when then can watch wth . LOL
me now go fine skins or wat ba .
bye !
Me is so somehow happy today (:

The useless me cried again .

hello people (:
you all must be boring now , in lesson :(
haha .
yay , i received a email , saying that me , audrea & wee gin .
can return school on monday (:
no need wait till conan MC over :D
ltr gonna do homework . sianzz .
now eating maggiee (:
bye !
I'm looking forward to see my friends on monday ! ♥

我不想一个人，我累了。

I can smile in many ways ,
but it doesn't mean that i'm happy .

Today woke up ,
smsed the school ,
now on the phone with Audrea ,
i'll stop here first ,
i'll be back if i feel like ! bye (:

Maybe life's just like that ,
once it's over it's over .
Everything after that is just too much for both ? idk .

虽然好想回到那时 ，
可是我只道再怎么做都没有用。
我会试着好好过，
不然这些眼泪白流。

Life somehow sucks .

Pathetically , we are now on LOA :(

Today was a even worst day ? :(
Morning the sky so dark the school like some haunted house :(
then ltr lesson we was watching twilight .
half way a teacher asked me & audrea out :(
The worst moment . we need to be sent back home . wtf :(
Wee gin also .
then we went down to the isolation station . (band room)
& saw 2e2s ppl there , like sean , peiyen blah3 .
they was so happy to see more ppl to join them , ltr keith also tio :(
then we was like prisoners "locked" in there . LOL .
then ltr we was playinggg (:
We started throwing bottles around ,
& Conan called wee gin saying hi to all of us . :(
thenma & audrea was like Conan Chow ! why you got H1N1 . LOL .
then ltr we was told to do something that blah3 .
so me & audrea kinda fake fake read bk .lol
then recess ,
we so poor thing :(
Need to takeaway food to eat in band room . so like prisoners . LOL
then ltr so many ppl wanted to join us say so good ! LOL
Kelwin they all actaully stand at the window there ,
then they say mr Rangen .
Their reaction fucking funny lor ,
they was like OMGGG , Mr Rangen ! ( running away )
then mr rangen was like they say omgg ? do i look like a god ._.
then everyone laughed . LOL
then after that mrs bay called our parents ?
Everyone was like so damn quiet that time , :(
then ltr went home liao .
Bused with audrea home .
then back to the doom .
one week ,,,, one week leh !
My harry potter :(
nvm , watch some other day .
I wonder will the Gen still want to wait for us then watch :(
LOA , everyday except sat & sun need go online do work leh , siannnn .
shall stop here for the day . bye !

Feelings for the moments ,

I thought i've no more tears for you ,
i was wrong very ,
the tears are still like before .
No matter what cruel things you said ,
i still feel almost the same for one .
i know there's no time machine ,
i know you will say no still ,
but why am i still being so stupid ?
idk , maybe this is me .
this is then the real me .
i don't want to be strong anymore ,
how i wished i can be out of this world , i'm scared really .
I feel so out of the world , i don't even know where i belong . :(
I think no one can know this feeling , even if you know ,
it still makes no change to me .
cause i always thought i'm fine ,
but end of the day it just feels like yesterday even a moments ago .

Why must one knows how to treasure when they lost it ,
god you nvr really gives human a chance ,
you only teach them how to be sad & regret .
This is life , i hate it .

I'm always wrong .

Let me start of with 3 pointers .

• Sorry to Audrea .
  
• Sorry to the mac auntie .
  
• Hope the someone gets well soon .
  

Today was nt a very good day .
Erm lessons was fine ba ?
Audrea was angry due to some reasons , don't be kapoh .
& i didn't say sorry immediately today idk why .
why ?
I find myself so weird .
:(
haiz ,
after school went kovan eat ,
then when i ordering that time ,
idk what happened i suddenly screamed at the auntie at the counter ,
Even Randy was shocked too :x
Haiz ,
then eat eat talk talk ,
then i bused home .
In the bus thought of many people / things .

The easiest thing seems to be the most thing that people don't think about .
I'm really sorry ,
sometimes it doesn't mean to some people that much but it means alot to some .

it's nt me .

Always out of a sudden ,

i missed the someone .
& the feeling just suck , really .

it was just a random speech ,

The cute dog i saw yesterday at the shop (: / me & audrea .


Today school was fine ba .
Joleen kinda can't come school ,
cause her sis sick uh ? i nt sure .
then our class so poor thing , like the napfa ,
we can't take today :x
then we waited till 3 ++ can ?! ,
then we was like waliao , but then nvm ,
we was slacking in school .
Actually wanted to play soccer with naufal they all de ,
but 2e3 students restricted :(
Er for the lessons today is fine ba ?
History lesson almost half of the class outside the class .
cause nvr do homework ._.
er no assembly again ,
instead we was folding the "ORANGE" star ? LOL .
& the star is like blue in colour ._.
then today got no act so we went joo seng eat .
the details lazt type la .
er but me & audrea , so blur :x

• First she left her wallet at the joo seng toliet there , the cleaner helped her take de .
  

• Then me , left my wallet in the school toliet , a girl helped me take ? hip i think ?

Yea so blur right ,
haha .
I think thats all ?
anw i changed the skin ,
cause i kinda dun like the robot skin (:
but this is like so damn simple (:
anw today ,
audrea acts like a lunatic during the last period ,
what snow snow ?! then blah 3 . haha .

Just now has got tution ,
its the thing that i hated the most , maybe ?
i mean i've nvr liked tuition ,
i mean who likes tuition .
& my firefox acts weridly .
nvm , i gonna finish my harry potter soon (:
Bye !

Every moments passed , i missed someone really alot .
Even though , i seem to be okay .
even though i don't seems to care .
but it seems from the start till now what the someone says really meant alot .
but i know all this is just nothing anymore .
A sms , a call , a concern , anything actually seems to be weird .
Conversations , the atmosphere seems idk how say .
How i wish there's a time machine ,
but i know it's a no .
I tried to nt concern so i act as though i didn't cared .

The every words you once said ,
nvr seems to fade away .

People are getting sick :(

Yeah changed my blogskin ,
you people must be tired of that blogskin too (:
& just recieved a call from Conan , him asking me if i'm okay ,
then i'm like yea ?
he actually got fever ,
hope he gets well soon .
Yea now off to maybe do my tuition homework ? (:
I'll be back very soon .

i never wanted to . & friends are as great as my harry potter land !

Fun Crazy Happy (:
They're all seen but most importantly you must feel them all truely in your heart (:


As you can see we was having fun in conan's room(:

Know what this's the back room of the kicthen there .LOL .
We found a tag that says Conan detective's room ? something like that (:



Hi readers !
let me update about my day (:
Today was okay .
It's like went school chiong homework ,
in the end what ? teacher forgot and says it's for this lesson homework . wth .
nvm , then first period was PE (:
It was fine . haha .
At first is mrs bay gonna see us through out the lesson de ,
but nt in school everyone was like "YAY"!
but mr chin was the one la . haha .
We continue the soccer lesson .
It's like haha , look damn stupid kicking the balls . LOL .
I paired with Audrea ,
today we did passing ,
it was like much more better than the last lesson .
I had some fun with the ball . haha .
audrea & me was like keep aiming ? no la , is striking at the cone ,
but we're nt suppose to :x
& after that , lalala , i'll just skip those rubbish we did . cause i scared you ppl fall asleep (:
Then after school ,
went conan 's house ,
it's quite fun yea . haha
Weegin and conan's bro , i think con something de the name i forgot :x
they guys were playing the xbox soccer ,
then me & audrea use com two hand played audi ._.
it was like fun (: !! but stupid .
then after that we was bored with that ,
so conan played dota ._.
then me & audrea went to join the xbox game . haha .
anw conan's bro real a irritater , haha .
he likes to insult people ? er in one way & like to throw things at people .
& we both was gan na bullied by him . LOL .
& he wented for tuition , we was gald so . LOL .
then we played the club on xbox ,
it was like some er , how say arh , erm shooting game ?
it's just like killing people game ? er idk how explain . haha .
We was damn high (:
& there's one thing i find it so damn stupid but cute . LOL .
it was we actually wanted to meet at the place then fight ._.
then i was like so noob ,
always can't kill people ,
but i won't a few times , really a few ! cause most of the time get killed (:
We both shouted & they was like we can't stand it . haha .
So all the way filled with laughters , haha (:
then we went home after we ate & treasure hunt around the house . haha .
His room damn nice . er okay la . haha
But that was the place where we fooled around . haha .
then after that me & audrea bused home . haha .
we was lucky , 155 reached fast .
& like what you see ,
we enjoyed , cause the guys & us were more than crazy (:
& there's a good news i can yay finally upload photos ._.
these few nights , i've got weird dreams ,
maybe this is the effect of reading too much harry potter bks ,
turn yourself imaginary enough (: